I miss you.

I haven't seen her in forever. The last day I saw her is still in my head, behind the shame I have for it. I have to admit it now, Im still in love with her. I've done this once before and she was very angered by me for it. Im trying to regain contact with her, but I believe she hates me. She told me she is not one to regret, but I am. I regret giving her up, I still want a relationship, but I do not deserve it. That is why I will not beg, but only try and make sure she is happy. All I want is for her to be happy, with or without me.

I haven't slept.

I haven't slept last night. I am tired and the coffee I drank a few minutes ago is not working, at all. Im feeling a little sick and I need to finish a three page paper within the next few hours for tomorrow. Maybe I'll sleep when Im finished. Wish me sleep, or wish me a cheeseburger hot pocket.

A college likes me!

I found out yesturday that I had been accepted to BMCC. I really don't remember what that stands for at the moment but at least I got into a college, I thought I never was. Now I have to decide what my next step is. I have a lot of important dates ahead, like prom and the senior trip. So many plans, so little money.